Semoga Bahagia - May You Achieve Happiness.

I stepped into the stage & quickly sat on the bright crimson cushion chair that all been set for me. I brushed the huge black-silky organ with my bare hands at one go, while finding some comfort in such a limited time. I had became the object of attention. I took a deep breath before allowing those 10 fingers of mine to press the keys. As soon as I started to play a few notes, it felt like I was being possessed by a force that overcomes all my fears that I had initially.

So what songs I played? Oh, I played the same old medley that I usually played repetitively at the same place. I started off with "Bintang Kecil - A Malay Lullaby Song", followed by "An Jing " - Jay Chou, then Lee Hom "Kiss Good Bye & Wei Yi", next "Bengawan Solo" - the Malay & Chinese Version and so on.

As I was indulging in my own world, I received an unwanted interruption from an expected person. "Oi.. Brother! Can you stop splashing water all over the place. Some of the water had leaked from the bathroom!" screamed the one that I called; the little Discipline Master of the house. She was my 17 year old youngest sister.

"Okay.. I'll splashed more!" I screamed in my reply to irritated her. "Hmm.. Where was I?" I began to recall those favourite songs of mine, before coming a complete end to my medley, which subsequently would end my evening shower. As I was shivering naked recalling for songs, the song "Semoga Bahagia" by Our Late Zubir Said, strikes my mind.

Oh ya, I love to sing old or classic songs while showering. Back then, most of the songs were simply evergreen, unlike today. But the song "Semoga Bahagia" was different. The song not only evergreen- in my own opinion but, it has many basic moral values stated in that song, that I felt we adults tend to forget or being ignorant over it at times. Every time when I hear people singing that song, especially children, I would feel touched. Reminisces of my primary school days would be playing in my mind, hence smiles would breed from it.

So what's the song about? The song depicts the values that youths should possess, and it also encourages youth to pursue their dreams, prove their value to the world, and wishes them success and happiness. On top of that, this song teaches one to honour/respect one's tradition & custom with full pride. Look around you today, I must say that moral values of youngsters today are depleting. And most tradition or custom practices are no longer or little being practiced. It is indeed a sad thing because in a way, we are losing the roots of our tradition and culture. Liberalization from the influence of western cultures or mixed cultures are Greatly the caused of it.

When I was browsing Youtube in looking for the song for this blog, I come to realize that back in 2006 NDP, Suria Singing Competition Champ- Hyrul Anwar, had sang the song differently. It was either he forgot the lyrics hence he made up by himself- which unlikely the case, or most probably the lyrics been changed due to suit the rhythm of his version. I think it is a form of disrespect to change any song writers lyrics. Furthermore, I believe that the song "Semoga Bahagia" was perfectly written; So what's there to amend? Shame brother.. shame.

Hmm... Why do I love the song? This because as you can see, I'm a dreamer. A dreamer that dreamed living in his own world. Once the real world catch up with me, I'm back to the same working class employee that needs to break away from his job to be what he has desired for his career. No, I don't want to be a singer, because I know I can't sing .. hehe, but a _ _ _ _ _ _ L_ _ _ actually I want to be. Not telling you for now. Every time when I feel lazy or feel like giving up in my dreams, I would listen to that song, as a motivation for me to push on. It helps me a lot.

I shall end my blog by the lyrics & translation of the Song :
( I know Some of you Guys would Sing Along. Hehe)

Malay lyrics

Semoga Bahagia ( Children's Day Song )

Sama-sama maju ke hadapan

Pandai cari pelajaran

Jaga diri dalam kesihatan

Serta sopan-santun dengan kawan-kawan

Dengan hati bersih serta suci

Sama-sama hormat dan berbudi

Jaga tingkah pemuda-pemudi

Adat dan budaya junjung tinggi

Capailah lekas cita-cita pemudi-pemuda

Supaya kita ada harga di mata dunia

Kalau kita lengah serta lupa

Hidup kita sia-sia

Jiwa besar sihat serta segar

Rajin dengan sabar tentu bahagia

Lemah lembut perangai pemudi

Cergas tangkas wataknya pemuda

Suka rela selalu berbakti

Sikap yang pembela dan berjasa

Capailah nama yang mulia pemudi-pemuda

Rajinlah supaya berjaya semoga bahagia

English

May You Achieve Happiness

Together we progress

Clever at seeking knowledge

Take care of your health

And be courteous to your friends

With a clean and pure heart

We respect and do good to each other

Watch your behaviour, oh youths

Respect and honour your customs and traditions

Quickly reach your goals/dreams, oh youths

So that we'll have our worth, in this world

If we are lazy and forgetful

Our lives are worthless

A big heart and a fresh mind

Hardworking and patience definitely brings success/happiness

Soft-spoken is the lady

Energetic and tenacious is the man

Charitable, always contributing

Having a righteous spirit and doing good

Attain a respectable position, oh youths

Be hardworking so that you will succeed, may you achieve happiness

Till the next blog; with Loads of Love - Adifazely.

The Silence

(This article is going to be boring-&-dry compared to others. I am going to blabber what I had encounter few weeks back till hours ago. Feel free to press the exit button if you feel that it is going to waste at most 5 minutes of your precious life.)

I was having late "coffee-ing" with my circle of close friends at KTM hours back. We were chatting a couple of hot issues, gossips, rumours and some common stuffs that we would usually talk about during our meet up. I was being myself ;chatting, irritating & inter-framing their conversations when suddenly I had the urged to have my nicotine-intake. I began to tap both sides of my pockets to locate my treasure box. To my surprised, it wasn't in any of the both pockets.

I was like "Where's my cigarettes?"

"You were smoking just now. Where did you placed it?" Daniel replied.

I recalled hard. Yes, I did smoke and remember placing it back in my pants pocket. Where on earth it had disappeared to. I walked around the area in case I had dropped it somewhere else. I was hoping that they would play punk'ed on me & placed it on the table, right before my eyes once I'm back on my seat. Sadly, it didn't happened.

Oh my, I remembered that minutes ago a sweeper had swept around the area & next to my seat. Most probably my inhalers had slipped from my left pocket, which had happened couple of times, & dropped on the floor, thus it had been swept by the sweeper.

Gosh, that period of time, I felt so pissed with myself and being overreacting by making it a big fuss. Sitting quietly with my folded arms , I began to cross my right leg over and shook it hard. I stared sharply to one direction while imagining I was overturning all of the empty tables to vent my anger. Of course it didn't happen. (I can be self-destructive, like a time bomb, when I've gone mad).

I'm making a BIG fuss over it because: That's my last box before my upcoming pay, in days time.

Can't afford to get another as this month, my hard work $$$ had gone to the mall's cashier box. (Read my article on "Shopping with Mr Goldfish")

As the sense of anger still lingering, I remained silence throughout the whole journey back home. But at the midst of anger and being silence, a thought came out to me. I realized that after all these times, I'm just being denial by telling myself that "A New Year is a New Beginning". It was bullshit actually. I still couldn't get over my break up & still depressing about it at times. Hence I had been depending heavily on cigarettes to let go of the stress.

There's when a wisdom strikes me "A New Beginning is When One has a New Thinking". And I realized that, when every time I'm angry and being silence, my senses would come back to me. It would reminds me of the near future or present issues that I should be concerned of. My studies, career and taekwondo.

To: Zahid. As much as I want to heed your advice like having a good time hanging out with you guys to let go my past year bad memories, I just simply can't. The good times I have would only erase the sadness temporarily. (Like the Shopping Spree I had last month) . Once I'm alone, it will haunt me & only me can stop the Monster.

To: Malik. Don't worry dude, I will be fine. Don't need professional help. I believe I'm strong enough to overcome this myself. Only self-progression in the things I do would kill the pain.

To: Rizal. I have already increase the font of the blog. Feedback me if you still can't read it.

To: Daniel. Thanks for the concerned and approached. You're a good friend.

To: Heder. :) Your "Puake-ness" I will miss a lot.

I'll keep blogging, blogging & blogging to keep you guys update for now. I really want to be alone for the time being.




Till the next blog. Loads of Love; Adifazely.

Vanity On Oneself Does Tell A Story (Part 2)

(Continue from Part 1 ..)

The fireplace had formed a saluate of the most perfect nude body he had ever seen in his life. Her skin was as smooth as silk and simply flawless. His hand began to ran from the bosom of the girl's body to her bottom. The girl looked so beauteous even when she was sleeping. He couldn't believe he had got what he desired, right before his eyes.

"I shall die like this with no regrets if I've reached to my last breath." Alanjandro said to himself while resting his head with his left arm and still brushing the girl 's body, that he had long admired.

Alanjandro then set aside some stray of the girl's hair with his last finger and moved forward to kiss her forehead. As he closed his eyes and at the verge of doing it, a voice whispered through his ears.

"My dear frog prince.. Is this how you want things to be? And you called this infinity?"

It's Vanity. The figure that had always appeared as a shadow in Alanjandro's life. The figure that had helped Alanjandro, through motivation, to turned from a frog to a prince again. Through endless motivation, Alanjandro had pushed himself and finally found the the cure to his curse.

"Look at you, you're perfect like a Hercules.. What have she done to deserve an Utopian like you," whispered vanity again as he tried to reach to Alanjandro's soul.

Lastly, Vanity whispered," Where was she when you were looking for the cure? She was nowhere insight except for me your Highness.." Vanity then slowly faded away as soon as all of the branches in the fireplace turned to ashes, like how the love Alanjandro beginning to feel for the girl.

Standing tall with no regrets, Alanjandro picked his clothes and got dressed.

"Where you're heading my Love?" the girl asked as soon as she was awaken by noise that Alanjandro made.

"Alanjandro remained silence. He walked a few steps to the door for his leave. And even before the girl, that he used to love few minutes ago, could say another sentence, Alanjandro paused and said, "My heart did reach yours, but.. you're not the one for me. And will never be."

----------The End----------

Written by: Adifazely.

Oh well, that is just a mini-short story for your entertainment. Hmm. By the way, back to Part 1 topic, I guess it's so-true when they say; things happen for a reason. If I never met the burger, I'll never be admired. Hmm. Maybe la.

Anyway, the point that I'm trying to make here is that, vanity does not necessarily portray one's insecurity. In fact for my case, I'm vain because I used to be so insecure. Contradicting. But at the end of the day, I think vanity can never keep it with confidence. The pictures of any model's body (FHM, Men Mag, etc) can never be compared to a pictures of 'no six pack' type of body. I salute those people who take pictures in what ever shape they are, with full confidence.

I shall end my blog with this qoute .. "Vanity is just an act of the Narcissist, and being a Narcissist is not a bad thing, depending how you want to live your life."

Till the next blog (Gonna hit the gym now); Loads of Love: Adifazely

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Vanity On Oneself Does tell a Story ... (Part 1)

"Oh Vanity ... What do I have to offer the girl. Even the Moonlight is not shining on me.."said the frog prince as he tried to find his true reflection by looking at the pond.

"It does not matter my dear. Be it if the moon shines or not, it is the matter of how you want to portray yourself. You are indeed the Masterpiece of your own look.. Stay with me.. and I will tell you how" replied Vanity with a glowing smile.

A decade ago, (Damn i feel so old now) I was never vain fella. Back then, I wouldn't allow anyone to snap a pic of myself as I had a real self-esteem problem. Damn, I hated photo taking sessions. Looking myself in the mirror was my biggest challenge. It felt like I've committed a sin if I were to do so. Far worst than the frog prince, I couldn't accept how I looked like.

So how could I possibly looked like when I was 14? Short & plump, center-parting hair with 2 curly fringes. Hmm.. what else. Oh, my waistline almost reached size of 34. My dressing? Simply horrible dude.

Despite being a misfit, I never failed to enjoy life. Got influenced with the underground music scene and there was a period of time I got myself into deep Shit. Hehe. I would describe my teenage days as "wild & free". I was still having self-esteem problem till at the age of 18(the year where I had dropped-out from polytechnic). But there was when an unfortunate incident had changed everything.

Well, basically the person I had a crush on badly, had crushed me instead. Nothing could be far worst than to be looked down on by the person you adored most. Hmm.. to cut the chase, the whole incident had made me stronger than ever. I felt that, it was time for me to work my ass out to show him something. Something that I weren't sure of that time. But I just told myself that I must work-out to have a better physical looks. Viola ! In 8 months I lost 8 kg and had a waistline of 28 due to my excessive diet & running. Damn .. from a plump monster, I turned into a scrawny freak.

I entered NS after the 8 months of self-trained, and by the time I'm done with it, my body was lean and tone till date. Just nice, I thought. Oh ya, I've met the burger last year at my former part time job. He wanted to get some stuff & it was so happened that I was at the counter. He was like stunned & shy to see the big difference in me. And I was like "Eat your heart out Honey."

That incident had really made me feel good about myself. There was when I decided to trust the vanity in me. No more insecurities. I was like thinking "If you have it, flaunt it".

Hmm. But I was wondering recently. What happens if I didn't have the chance to know the burger at the first place? Will I be forever feeling insecure of my looks? Will those people in Facebook would still give compliments on my pics? Hmm. Probably not I guess.


To be continue ...



Got to sleep guys. Will update as soon as possible. Nites.



Till the next blog, Loads of Love; Adifazely.

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Emptiness

Emptiness. Emptiness might happen to you if you lost someone you love. You would feel that in a way you have lost your sense of direction in life, even though you know what is ahead of you and what are your priorities in life. The best word to describe this feeling is "Unmotivated". Unmotivated to live, and enjoy life as you should.

Emptiness. Emptiness might also happen to you if you are to indulge in the things you do (like work) that you have ignored the needs of your soul. Your soul is just like a twin of you that will make you feel balanced in life. It's all about the Yin & Yang in you. You would feel the emptiness if at the end of the day, after you have put in a lot of effort in the things you do, there's a little voice asking yourself "What am I doing Here?" or "How come I'm unhappy even though I'm at the peak of the mountain?"

That is emptiness for you.

Thinking of overcoming emptiness? Hehehe, I might not know as I'm working on it. Ive lost the person I love a lot. No, no one died. Just that we are separated. Separated by fate. Hmm. To overcome the emptiness, I've tried a lot of stuff. Shopping and others but it just didn't work out. That's why I'm blogging now. I'm finding a purpose for the soul. So it won't feel empty. (Damn my exam is next Monday)

Besides blogging, I've started on a Novel that called "Memoirs of a Bravo Hotel Staff". It will be interesting as it would open the mind of those who are heterosexual. Yes, you can sense that this novel of mine will be about the homosexuals. The wisdom of this thought came up in my mind while I pondering about how life changes. The environment and society. It's about time the heterosexual society to accept reality and be more adaptable towards life. Hopefully I could complete this novel by the end of March next year. Wish me luck. :)

Till the next blog, Loads of Love; Adifazely.