Friday, January 1, 2010

Viva La 2010 !

Introduction On My 2010 1st Article ..

Well, I'm not sure about you but I'm looking forward for this day to come. The first day of the New Year. The day that ends 2009. The day that I told myself, it's time to move on and the pain won't hurt me anymore. Hmm. Hopefully I'm right this time.



Yesterday.. 0001 Hrs at Clarke Quay:

I was thinking ..

Dear Adifazely,

This new year celebration is very contradicting from the previous year; 2009. A year ago, I'm sad to leave the life I had had in 2008. The moments of 2008 were just to good to be true. Today, it felt like something similar, but different for many reasons. It was hard to reflect on the good moments in 2009, because all of the good moments had ends bitterly. Unlike 2008, the memories I had was nice to reflect and will always be. I'm starting to believe that not all good moments necessarily ends in a good way.

____________________________________________________________
For the Record Babe ..

I hate to do this but for the record of 2009, I wish to list the things that leads me to Depression;

Top 3 List
1) The Break Up
2) Office Politics
3) Time Commitment

Hmm. Depression .. For the first time in my life, I couldn't take good control of myself when I was depressed. I did a couple of unworthy things that makes me an idiot. Yes, I was an idiot for a period a time. (Come on, don't laugh at me) But the
best part was, I'm not sure what the "F "I'm thinking when I did those unworthy stuffs.

(I thought it would be nice to list how life could break me at times, and one day when I am standing tall again, I would be smiling when I have at a good look at it.)
___________________________________________________________



Present..
2nd Day of the Year at 0321 Hrs:

You know what, as much as I thought I'm better off dead back then - 2009, I'm glad that I'm still here because .. 2009 is Over !! I'm glad that I've gotten loads of issues over issues that have gave me an idea of how life in 2010 is going be & how things going to work out for me. I'm sorry again for those I've hurt back in 2009.
Again, I'm just a human being. Full of imperfections.

Anyway, I will make full use of 2010 with the emptiness I have now. Like what good friend of mine, Malik, once told me before;
emptiness might not be necessarily be a bad thing. I begin to understand what he meant. I'll treat 2010 like my table cover at my work place (Read my blog "When Nirvana Strikes!")

I shall end my blog for now. So tired. I'm working in 5 Hours time. Yawn*

But before i'll end, I would like to take this opportunity to wish you guys a Happy 2010. Let us leave what's not worth remembering, & treat life the best of it's best. Good Night my friends. By the way, please do add me as my reader by clicking the icon button - "Follow". It won't cost you a single cent & I would really appreciate a lot. Thank you.



Till the next blog, Loads of Love; Adifazely.