Sexy.

The long hand tells me that it was 10 minutes before the witching hour. As I was browsing through pictures of the unknowns in my facebook "friend list", I happened to come across some pictures that I find them 'Sexy'. There's where I paused and asked myself; "In what ways you find the pictures 'Sexy'? Or how do you define 'Sexy'?". I've figured it out as soon as I puffed at my last cigarette for the night, before flicking it off. 'Sexy' is about one portraying his/her sex appeal naturally without doing it deliberately. To be done intentionally or not, the remark of one's 'sexiness' still lies in the eyes of the Beholder.

I've read before a book about a particular tattoo artist. Damn, I've forgotten his name. Anyway, have you wonder why guys (certain guys at least) find pretty girls that smoke sexy? You could see this scenario in movies etc. Many guys would find them sexy, without knowing the psychological logic behind it. You could be mesmerized by a pretty girl that smoke and gave her piercing sight of you, probably in a pub, because she's portraying an image of; I'm young, I'm a girl. So what if I smoke? So what if it could brings danger to my health? I don't care at all. You would then won't hesitate to get near her.

Got to sleep now. Good Nite to You 'Sexy' little Creatures out there. Stay Sexy Always. ^^.

Till the next blog; with Loads of Love - Adifazely.

Friend-A-Fit : Would You Allow Your Friend to Touch Your Disco Stick?

Okay, For the Record of those who do not know what's the meaning of "friend-a-fit", Friend-A-Fit means having "friends with benefits" such as you can have sex, kiss, hold hands, cuddle and do things that couples do in relationships but you have no emotional attachments. You don't have to care about their feelings being hurt when you are with another person. And they shouldn't be hurt too. (According to "Urban Dictionary" - online.)

To start this proper, I would like to say "I Believe in Friend-A-Fit !!" Hehe. I know I need not be overexcited in telling the Public this, but I'm still trying to make my stand & point over yesterday debate with my "Alfiah Coffeeshop Gang".

Here's How the Debate Went On Yesterday ...

"How could you have sex with your own friends .. You're making you're friend like a slave," Zahid Mendoza said as he still holding on to his cup of less sugar coffee while the whole debate was going on. Don't ask me why.

"No! In what way I will make my friend like a slave? It is not as if I would practice Master & Slave on them during the Lust making session," I said that as my defense statement.

"Adi, if you were to do with friends that are not so close to you, it's Ok," Rizal Abdul Karim said while having his arms folded.

Heder Monteiro then nodded his head to agree with Rizal Abdul Karim.

"It's not the matter of the proximate level of friendship that you have with your friends, it's about satisfying your Lust & your friend's Lust," I replied with a stern voice in order to make my point more concrete.

"If that's the case, I'm sorry to tell you this but, you simply don't have any principles in life," Zahid Mendoza said bluntly.

I raised my both hands up and in ironic amusement laughter I said, "What? Because of that I do not have principles in Life??."

"Donita" was there too. He was indeed speechless & clueless, and probably shocked about the whole debate. Still, with a Big Bro image he portrayed, he remained cool & steady. Way to go Boy!

Oh well, enough with the debate. I shall share with you readers, based on my personal experience, 5 Top Reasons of why "Friend-A-Fit" is A-Okay in this Civic Minded Society.

(Not in any particular Order.. But the no. 5 is the Most Priority. Hehe.)

1) Better Friendship. First of all, the higher the level of intimacy you have with your friend, is the closer your friendship you will have with your friend. This is because, you have removed the personal space boundaries with him/her. You allow him to enter the personal space which, you would distance yourself from others, due to your insecurities, trust & safety.

2) Healthy Sex. Okay, We Human Beings are horny at times. For the Hardcore ones, it would be every minute of their lives. (Haha!) Anyway, we could practice healthy sex because as you know, the rate of STD & Aids are increasing every second as the clock ticks. And We are all immune to have it if; we were to wake up one day & realized that for some human-nature-call reason we are horny, and decided to go chat channels for some hook-up. While some others, usually the old ugly people, would look for prostitutes for it. Hence, if the hook-ups that we met up or the prostitutes that the old ugly people look for has STD or Aids .... (Please help me to complete the sentence & don't forget to touch "Wood").

So, doing with friends are healthy because, 1 thing for safety sure; Our Friends Won't Want to Harm Us If They Know They Have It.

3) Genuine Feedback. In One Night Stand, most partners find it difficult to give their "ONS" party a genuine feedback of the sex that they had had. This is because, most of them probably don't bother as it is just; One Night Only thingy. Talking about this, I remembered years back when someone was giving me a Blow, it hurts my Disco Stick so much because my ONS partner had irregular set of teeth. I was like; Ouch baby, Please be a freak for a year or two to put on aluminum metal sheets on your teeth so that in future, you won't hurt others. Of course I didn't tell that off.

4) Sex Guru. Knowing that your friend will give you genuine feedback on your sex skills, you could practice more on him to make it perfect. After doing it probably a year with your friend & one fine day you try to do it on your date, your date would go like "Ah Woo .(Like Shakira song; She Wolf).. Heaven is really a place On Earth!" And thus ... Viola! You're a Sex Guru! A.k.a The Man That Knows It All.

5) Better Love Life. As much as Act Innocent people wants to deny that Love is Not About Sex, but the harsh but yet sweet truth is that, Love Is About Sex. Ok, fine. I shall moderate my thinking & say Good Sex is one of the pillar for a Good Relationship. Care, Share, bluek, bluek again till vomit and others are the other pillars of a good relationship as well.

So there you have it. The 5 Good Reasons of why getting intimate, sex, fore play, banging behind the bush - you name it, with your friends is A-Okay & in fact it is better than to do with some unknowns.

I shall end my Blog this time by stating a some parts of lyrics from one of Lady Gaga Song. It's called Love Game:

I'm on a mission, And it involves some heavy touchin' yeah.
You've indicated your interest,I'm educated in sex, yes.
And now I want it bad,Want it bad. I love game, I love game.

I can see you staring there from across the block
with a smile on your mouth and your hand on your *huh
The story of us it always starts the same with a boy and a girl and a *huh and a game!


Till the next blog, With Loads of Love (Game); Adifazely.

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Oh My Fellow Brothers Across the Borders, What Have you Done.

[ What I have commented here is purely my opinions. References of any facts given are reflected at the bottom of the page. Readers are invited to give their views in the comment box. Please be responsible enough to comment your views moderately. Thank you.]

It was on late Thursday night when I first know about the dispute. I was lying beside my mom on the couch when I got to know of it on Suria repeated news telecast.

My mom suddenly tapped me continuously and was going like, "Adi, Adi . . Watch this. The Malaysians were having dispute over the kalimah "Allah".

"Oh really .. " I then sat up and leaned my body forward to focus more on the news.

My mom and I shared some views and before heading to bed. The last thing I knew was that, the Malaysians had left the matter to Court to decide whether were the Christians allowed to use the kalimah or not.

As I closed my eyes I pondered, "By leaving this matter to the Court, was it the best alternative way to settle the issue?" First of all, the Court as supposed to touch on social issues. How was it possible to favour or judge two parties when it comes to Religion and Beliefs? These are the sensitive issues that I don't think the Court have the ability or right to judge at the first place.

The next morning was warm and bright and as close as to sunny as the Singapore skyline allowed. My eyes were half-opened as I make my way to the toilet to shower & get ready for work. As she stirred the coffee, my mom turned and said "Guess what, the churches got burnt".

"Churches got burnt in Malaysia?" the question kept running through my mind when I was at work. Hmm. It was like, I couldn't digest the fact. How could developed country like Malaysia, where most are educated, allowed this to happen? If this were to happen to developing countries like Indonesia probably I could understand but Malaysia? It was hard for me to accept the fact.

There were many issues that popped up in my mind when I thought of blogging this up. It was messy. For what I concerned most was that, the upcoming consequences from these irresponsible actions. From the factors like racial riots to increasing threats of the terrorists, weren't possible to happen if the Malaysian Authorities do not take good control over this avoidable situation.

Again, these are the things that running through my mind ...


How Could This Happen At the First Place?

1. My Point of View On the Irresponsible Act.

Must it comes to such resort, such as burning of other religion's holy place, to claim in what-you-think is right? For what is Truly Right is that, Islam did not teach us to use any form of violence against others. Importantly, Patience Makes Up Half of Our Faith in Islam. If the irresponsible acts been done by the Muslims there, I'll say, "Shame On You". You simply do not understand the Most Basic teaching of Islam.

2. Why Must the Christians Use kalimah of "Allah"?

Hmm. I wondered. The Christians there may not have the intentions of converting the Muslims, but why on earth would you want to use the kalimah of "Allah" when you know that you are only made up 10% of the whole population and majority are Muslims? I mean like, they should know by doing so, they might confuse some young & naive Muslims there. On top of that, they could be penalized if they are found proselytized the Muslims in certain states. To begin with, the kalimah "Allah" does not even exists in the Bible. Why must they interpret the word God as "Allah" when they can use the word "Tuhan" that is more relevant because, the word "Tuhan" is in Malay Language. I find it ridiculous as they themselves are inviting trouble. But still, they don't deserve to have their church burnt down.

3. Could the Burning of Church Been Done By the Terrorists or Radical Christians?

First of all, it could be the act of terrorists because that was their perfect time to fire-up the tensions & once the Muslims go out of control, it's a good time recruit them to their forces. Secondly, I know it might sound ridiculous, but it could be an act of the Radical Christians. People would do anything to tarnish one's image. Honestly, do you really think the September 11 incident was the work of the Al-Qaeda? Or America themselves were the Al-Qaeda? For ulterior reason; Liquidified-gold.


So What's the Story Next?

Damaged has been done & no point of pointing fingers or making false accusations. I guess the most important thing that the Malaysian Government should do now is that, they should not only tightened up their line of security in the country, but also to promote racial harmony through mutual respect.

If the Malaysian Government does not do anything about it, I fear for the worst. Seriously. Besides concerning of my religion image, I'm also concerned about influx ion of "refugees" if a massive riot were to happen across the borders. On top of that, the terrorists might find their homeland if things get worsen.

I shall end my blog by saying, "Let's Pray for the Best" no matter which religion you're from. Enough of natural disasters that worries us so much, we simply do not need avoidable human disaster.


Till the next blog, with Loads of Love; Adifazely.

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Some Interesting Articles for More Information:

1) Tun Dr Mahathir's Blog
http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/2010/01/kontroversi-kegunaaan-kalimah.html#more

2) Leaders Condemn Church Burning Incident In Desa Melawati
http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v5/news_lite.php?id=466965 (Bernama.Com)

3) Malaysia Church Torched Amid Allah Row
http://in.reuters.com/article/worldNews/idINIndia-45233720100107?pageNumber=1&virtualBrandChannel=0

The Silence

(This article is going to be boring-&-dry compared to others. I am going to blabber what I had encounter few weeks back till hours ago. Feel free to press the exit button if you feel that it is going to waste at most 5 minutes of your precious life.)

I was having late "coffee-ing" with my circle of close friends at KTM hours back. We were chatting a couple of hot issues, gossips, rumours and some common stuffs that we would usually talk about during our meet up. I was being myself ;chatting, irritating & inter-framing their conversations when suddenly I had the urged to have my nicotine-intake. I began to tap both sides of my pockets to locate my treasure box. To my surprised, it wasn't in any of the both pockets.

I was like "Where's my cigarettes?"

"You were smoking just now. Where did you placed it?" Daniel replied.

I recalled hard. Yes, I did smoke and remember placing it back in my pants pocket. Where on earth it had disappeared to. I walked around the area in case I had dropped it somewhere else. I was hoping that they would play punk'ed on me & placed it on the table, right before my eyes once I'm back on my seat. Sadly, it didn't happened.

Oh my, I remembered that minutes ago a sweeper had swept around the area & next to my seat. Most probably my inhalers had slipped from my left pocket, which had happened couple of times, & dropped on the floor, thus it had been swept by the sweeper.

Gosh, that period of time, I felt so pissed with myself and being overreacting by making it a big fuss. Sitting quietly with my folded arms , I began to cross my right leg over and shook it hard. I stared sharply to one direction while imagining I was overturning all of the empty tables to vent my anger. Of course it didn't happen. (I can be self-destructive, like a time bomb, when I've gone mad).

I'm making a BIG fuss over it because: That's my last box before my upcoming pay, in days time.

Can't afford to get another as this month, my hard work $$$ had gone to the mall's cashier box. (Read my article on "Shopping with Mr Goldfish")

As the sense of anger still lingering, I remained silence throughout the whole journey back home. But at the midst of anger and being silence, a thought came out to me. I realized that after all these times, I'm just being denial by telling myself that "A New Year is a New Beginning". It was bullshit actually. I still couldn't get over my break up & still depressing about it at times. Hence I had been depending heavily on cigarettes to let go of the stress.

There's when a wisdom strikes me "A New Beginning is When One has a New Thinking". And I realized that, when every time I'm angry and being silence, my senses would come back to me. It would reminds me of the near future or present issues that I should be concerned of. My studies, career and taekwondo.

To: Zahid. As much as I want to heed your advice like having a good time hanging out with you guys to let go my past year bad memories, I just simply can't. The good times I have would only erase the sadness temporarily. (Like the Shopping Spree I had last month) . Once I'm alone, it will haunt me & only me can stop the Monster.

To: Malik. Don't worry dude, I will be fine. Don't need professional help. I believe I'm strong enough to overcome this myself. Only self-progression in the things I do would kill the pain.

To: Rizal. I have already increase the font of the blog. Feedback me if you still can't read it.

To: Daniel. Thanks for the concerned and approached. You're a good friend.

To: Heder. :) Your "Puake-ness" I will miss a lot.

I'll keep blogging, blogging & blogging to keep you guys update for now. I really want to be alone for the time being.




Till the next blog. Loads of Love; Adifazely.

Vanity On Oneself Does Tell A Story (Part 2)

(Continue from Part 1 ..)

The fireplace had formed a saluate of the most perfect nude body he had ever seen in his life. Her skin was as smooth as silk and simply flawless. His hand began to ran from the bosom of the girl's body to her bottom. The girl looked so beauteous even when she was sleeping. He couldn't believe he had got what he desired, right before his eyes.

"I shall die like this with no regrets if I've reached to my last breath." Alanjandro said to himself while resting his head with his left arm and still brushing the girl 's body, that he had long admired.

Alanjandro then set aside some stray of the girl's hair with his last finger and moved forward to kiss her forehead. As he closed his eyes and at the verge of doing it, a voice whispered through his ears.

"My dear frog prince.. Is this how you want things to be? And you called this infinity?"

It's Vanity. The figure that had always appeared as a shadow in Alanjandro's life. The figure that had helped Alanjandro, through motivation, to turned from a frog to a prince again. Through endless motivation, Alanjandro had pushed himself and finally found the the cure to his curse.

"Look at you, you're perfect like a Hercules.. What have she done to deserve an Utopian like you," whispered vanity again as he tried to reach to Alanjandro's soul.

Lastly, Vanity whispered," Where was she when you were looking for the cure? She was nowhere insight except for me your Highness.." Vanity then slowly faded away as soon as all of the branches in the fireplace turned to ashes, like how the love Alanjandro beginning to feel for the girl.

Standing tall with no regrets, Alanjandro picked his clothes and got dressed.

"Where you're heading my Love?" the girl asked as soon as she was awaken by noise that Alanjandro made.

"Alanjandro remained silence. He walked a few steps to the door for his leave. And even before the girl, that he used to love few minutes ago, could say another sentence, Alanjandro paused and said, "My heart did reach yours, but.. you're not the one for me. And will never be."

----------The End----------

Written by: Adifazely.

Oh well, that is just a mini-short story for your entertainment. Hmm. By the way, back to Part 1 topic, I guess it's so-true when they say; things happen for a reason. If I never met the burger, I'll never be admired. Hmm. Maybe la.

Anyway, the point that I'm trying to make here is that, vanity does not necessarily portray one's insecurity. In fact for my case, I'm vain because I used to be so insecure. Contradicting. But at the end of the day, I think vanity can never keep it with confidence. The pictures of any model's body (FHM, Men Mag, etc) can never be compared to a pictures of 'no six pack' type of body. I salute those people who take pictures in what ever shape they are, with full confidence.

I shall end my blog with this qoute .. "Vanity is just an act of the Narcissist, and being a Narcissist is not a bad thing, depending how you want to live your life."

Till the next blog (Gonna hit the gym now); Loads of Love: Adifazely

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Vanity On Oneself Does tell a Story ... (Part 1)

"Oh Vanity ... What do I have to offer the girl. Even the Moonlight is not shining on me.."said the frog prince as he tried to find his true reflection by looking at the pond.

"It does not matter my dear. Be it if the moon shines or not, it is the matter of how you want to portray yourself. You are indeed the Masterpiece of your own look.. Stay with me.. and I will tell you how" replied Vanity with a glowing smile.

A decade ago, (Damn i feel so old now) I was never vain fella. Back then, I wouldn't allow anyone to snap a pic of myself as I had a real self-esteem problem. Damn, I hated photo taking sessions. Looking myself in the mirror was my biggest challenge. It felt like I've committed a sin if I were to do so. Far worst than the frog prince, I couldn't accept how I looked like.

So how could I possibly looked like when I was 14? Short & plump, center-parting hair with 2 curly fringes. Hmm.. what else. Oh, my waistline almost reached size of 34. My dressing? Simply horrible dude.

Despite being a misfit, I never failed to enjoy life. Got influenced with the underground music scene and there was a period of time I got myself into deep Shit. Hehe. I would describe my teenage days as "wild & free". I was still having self-esteem problem till at the age of 18(the year where I had dropped-out from polytechnic). But there was when an unfortunate incident had changed everything.

Well, basically the person I had a crush on badly, had crushed me instead. Nothing could be far worst than to be looked down on by the person you adored most. Hmm.. to cut the chase, the whole incident had made me stronger than ever. I felt that, it was time for me to work my ass out to show him something. Something that I weren't sure of that time. But I just told myself that I must work-out to have a better physical looks. Viola ! In 8 months I lost 8 kg and had a waistline of 28 due to my excessive diet & running. Damn .. from a plump monster, I turned into a scrawny freak.

I entered NS after the 8 months of self-trained, and by the time I'm done with it, my body was lean and tone till date. Just nice, I thought. Oh ya, I've met the burger last year at my former part time job. He wanted to get some stuff & it was so happened that I was at the counter. He was like stunned & shy to see the big difference in me. And I was like "Eat your heart out Honey."

That incident had really made me feel good about myself. There was when I decided to trust the vanity in me. No more insecurities. I was like thinking "If you have it, flaunt it".

Hmm. But I was wondering recently. What happens if I didn't have the chance to know the burger at the first place? Will I be forever feeling insecure of my looks? Will those people in Facebook would still give compliments on my pics? Hmm. Probably not I guess.


To be continue ...



Got to sleep guys. Will update as soon as possible. Nites.



Till the next blog, Loads of Love; Adifazely.

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Viva La 2010 !

Introduction On My 2010 1st Article ..

Well, I'm not sure about you but I'm looking forward for this day to come. The first day of the New Year. The day that ends 2009. The day that I told myself, it's time to move on and the pain won't hurt me anymore. Hmm. Hopefully I'm right this time.



Yesterday.. 0001 Hrs at Clarke Quay:

I was thinking ..

Dear Adifazely,

This new year celebration is very contradicting from the previous year; 2009. A year ago, I'm sad to leave the life I had had in 2008. The moments of 2008 were just to good to be true. Today, it felt like something similar, but different for many reasons. It was hard to reflect on the good moments in 2009, because all of the good moments had ends bitterly. Unlike 2008, the memories I had was nice to reflect and will always be. I'm starting to believe that not all good moments necessarily ends in a good way.

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For the Record Babe ..

I hate to do this but for the record of 2009, I wish to list the things that leads me to Depression;

Top 3 List
1) The Break Up
2) Office Politics
3) Time Commitment

Hmm. Depression .. For the first time in my life, I couldn't take good control of myself when I was depressed. I did a couple of unworthy things that makes me an idiot. Yes, I was an idiot for a period a time. (Come on, don't laugh at me) But the best part was, I'm not sure what the "F "I'm thinking when I did those unworthy stuffs.

(I thought it would be nice to list how life could break me at times, and one day when I am standing tall again, I would be smiling when I have at a good look at it.)
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Present.. 2nd Day of the Year at 0321 Hrs:

You know what, as much as I thought I'm better off dead back then - 2009, I'm glad that I'm still here because .. 2009 is Over !! I'm glad that I've gotten loads of issues over issues that have gave me an idea of how life in 2010 is going be & how things going to work out for me. I'm sorry again for those I've hurt back in 2009. Again, I'm just a human being. Full of imperfections.

Anyway, I will make full use of 2010 with the emptiness I have now. Like what good friend of mine, Malik, once told me before; emptiness might not be necessarily be a bad thing. I begin to understand what he meant. I'll treat 2010 like my table cover at my work place (Read my blog "When Nirvana Strikes!")

I shall end my blog for now. So tired. I'm working in 5 Hours time. Yawn*

But before i'll end, I would like to take this opportunity to wish you guys a Happy 2010. Let us leave what's not worth remembering, & treat life the best of it's best. Good Night my friends. By the way, please do add me as my reader by clicking the icon button - "Follow". It won't cost you a single cent & I would really appreciate a lot. Thank you.



Till the next blog, Loads of Love; Adifazely.